Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I've never really been a "stresser". I praise God for parents who raised me to rely on the Lord. Their example during my growing up years was invaluable. However, while tendencies are very helpful, they are always put to the test it seems! For some reason this past year has just been one of those years! It can come in many forms and from all different sides. I found my non-stressed resolve crumbling on many fronts. Everything from fiances to overwhelming responsibilities to divided relationships began to pile onto my chest. You know that weighted down heavy feeling that makes it hard to breathe? How about that rock in your stomach when you wake up in the morning? This was all rather new to me! But it wasn't fun!
One day as I was driving home by myself (unbelievable I know!) I began to simply pray out loud. I started out telling the Lord all the things that were bothering me and making me uncomfortable, and went on to tell Him where I would rather be. It was then that I had the feeling of falling out of an airplane without a parachute. I was scared. I burst into tears. I began to beg my gracious heavenly Father to hold me and keep me safe in His hands.
The thought of "telling God" what He should do terrified me. Completely and utterly terrified. As it should. It hit me like a blow that day, and I hope that the blow never goes away. The only place I ever want to be is in HIS HANDS! Where else could I ever begin to be safe? Where else would ever bring me even a glimpse of true peace?
Who holds in his hands more blessings than we could imagine? Only God. Who wants the absolute best for us, not only for today, but for eternity? Only God. Who has the wisdom to plan just what we need to learn and grow to be useful for the only things that really matter? Only God. Who has the power to accomplish whatever He desires? Only God. What or whom should we fear? Only God.
I love this quote by A.W. Tozer. "With the goodness of God to desire our highest welfare, the wisdom of God to plan it, and the power of God to achieve it, what do we lack? Surely we are the most favored of all creatures."
To rest completely in the Father's loving hands is truly the only place I want to be! What else could I possibly desire?