When we got married I thought that (of course!) life would be easy. I was marrying my best friend. Not only were we madly in love with each other, but we had a pretty good understanding of what real love was about. We knew everything about each other (sarcasm added!). And I was excited to submit. It was going to be great!
Fast forward three weeks and a new unwelcome feeling entered our home. I was hurt. Often. Mostly I felt unimportant to my husband. Every time he chose to go hang out with the guys, work late, or just wanted us to do something other than just stay home, I felt hurt. Unloved. Like I wasn't interesting enough for him. At that point I was perfectly happy to spend all of my days curled up in his arms (okay, so maybe I still am!) and the thought that sometimes that was "boring" for him hurt me.
bickering. "He's late.
7:30. Dinner was cold. The thoughts were arguing by this time. "
8:30. Dinner was in the refrigerator. The thoughts were in an all out brawl! "
9:00. He calls. "Hi Babe. I'm so sorry that I'm not home. I can't believe this radio installation is taking so long. I really miss you and can't wait to get home. I love you so much!". By the grace of God I was able to say with my whole heart, "That's okay! I'll heat dinner up whenever you get back. I hope that the radio works out for you and I can't wait to see you!".
I knew this was the moment for me to decide. What am I going to choose to think? I decided to plunge in with both feet. Circumstances aside, I decided to go for the truth. "I am married to an amazing man of God. It is such a privilege to be his wife. I am so blessed to make his dinner, clean his home, give him a kiss and a smile. This is exactly where I've always wanted to be. I know that he loves me. Even if me doesn't completely understand me, he tries his best to honor me at all times. He is the hardest working man I know. I respect him more than any man I know. He is the most handsome man alive!"
These were the thoughts that kept me company that night, and as 11:00 rolled around and my husband finally pulled in the driveway, I was ecstatic to see him, kiss him and serve him his reheated dinner. We had a fabulous time together. My heart was filled with love for this man who was five hours late. Believe me, it felt so much better than the hurt, loneliness and self-pity that I usually felt. Circumstances hadn't changed at all. But everything was different!
2 Corinthians 10:5 ~ "We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."
The Bible tells us that this is one of out greatest weapons with which we can demolish strongholds! Taking our thoughts captive and making them obedient to Christ.
I'm telling you now, this really and truly is the key that frees my heart from being consumed with my rights, my feelings and my disappointments. And let me stress, this is only by the grace of God. Why am I writing about this now? Because I could use the reminder! I can use this reminder every day. And this applies to so many areas of life for me. Whenever I feel unappreciated, annoyed, or hurt, I can almost always trace it back to my thought life and what I choose to dwell on. I fail. Embarrassingly often! But when I fail, I know what to do!
Remember to seek the truth my sisters! Remember to be thankful in all circumstances! And please remember to remind me as often as you can!