Tuesday, August 14, 2012
It's a strange morning around here. My poor husband has been sick all night. My girls for some reason are ALL sleeping in this morning which means right now it is 8:26 and I'm sitting here all alone. With my Earl Grey tea.
These moments are rare. Yesterday I was contemplating how my time with the Lord lately has gotten shuffled into the mix of life. That's not completely a bad thing. I love reading the Word with my babies on my lap. I really love praying while washing the dishes and wiping messy faces. However I know that at times I need to set aside time just for me to meet with my Savior.
Yesterday I was reading in Psalm 63. It begins, "O God, You are my God; I shall seek you earnestly; My soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water."
I began thinking, why don' I feel like I'm thirsting after God? As my life gets set in cruise control and I'm rolling along, why don't I feel myself yearning for the Lord?
I reminded myself of my poor little water bottle sitting on the kitchen ledge.
It spends most of it's day there. I refill it almost every morning, knowing that I need to drink at least three of them to consume a healthy intake of water. But I am terrible about drinking water. TERRIBLE! I just don't feel thirsty. Even of these hot days. I don't feel thirsty.
As a result I get major head aches, my skin is dry and cracking, my energy is low. It effects my body in more ways than I'll ever know. I need water. I will never be living life to the fullest until my body can function the way it is supposed to; quenched and refreshed.
Just because I don't feel a thirst for God, doesn't mean my soul isn't desperate for Him. Just because I "feel fine" bouncing through life doesn't mean my spirit is parched. All it means is that I've grown accustomed to going through life with a constant "head ache", with a dry and cracking spirit. I've forgotten what it's like to be overflowing with the Spirit of God living in me. To live each moment completely satisfied with His goodness and grace.
Today I'm praying that the Lord will open my eyes. That I will see how desperate I really am. That I will thirst for Him. Because He is the only one who truly satisfies!